You dont know what you are holding in your hands, your eyes are shut from the reality
You hold dangerous swords in both hands, and still want to keep yourself shut from the truth.
Truth never will remain silent, it bombards at some point or the other.
When things are not meant to be with you, shutting your eyes from the truth of the situation doesnt help.
Accepting the truth and embracing it wholeheartedly, helps!
Try to accept what life is giving you with gratitude.